It’s not an exaggeration to say the past three years have been incredibly challenging and soul stretching for me, and at the same time they’ve offered opportunities for growth and transformation and learning things inside out like none other!!!
For instance, I now know I can do really hard things and I’m a lot stronger than I thought! It’s totally true that what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger!!
I’ve learned firsthand that when you think things can’t get worse, they can. And when something hurts you and feels so bad you don’t think you can ever feel good again… your body and heart can heal enough for you to rise up and feel strong and happy, and your world can feel all right again.
I’ve been constantly reminded that it’s not what happens to you but the way you react to it that causes your mood and life to spiral either up or down.
And I’ve learned that when someone wraps poop in a pretty package and says it’s a gift it’s still poop and it still stinks. And if you hold onto it and dwell on the irony of it all you’ll just stay stuck in a sewer swirl and the pooey deal will stink even more.
My life’s been really hard the past couple of years I’m not gonna lie. Oh I’ve done my best to keep my chin up and there have been some really rich and fulfilling moments, but behind the scenes there’ve also been a lot of times when all I could do was collapse. I’ve faltered and fallen, eaten for comfort, and sometimes simply sat around in an exhausted and depressed daze. It’s been a time of tumultuous emotions and dealing with difficult stuff. I haven’t liked it, and I haven’t always liked the way I handled myself as I went through it.
But the good news is I’m a fighter and I get back up!!!! I refuse to become a victim to the hard and disappointing things. When I get knocked down I refuse to stay down!! I always get up and I come back stronger than ever!!!
So with a heart that’s much more forgiving, accepting, loving and grateful than not (because I have learned some powerful lessons and grown like crazy… and how can I not be grateful for that?!) … I’m choosing to say goodbye to 2018 and firmly close the door on a very difficult and challenging past.
What’s important and relevant now is I’m still here and I’ve got me (my biggest asset!) and THIS IS MY LIFE and I’m moving forward because I’m in the drivers seat and I get to choose the direction I’m going!
Im choosing to see the NEW YEAR that lies ahead and as a NEW BEGINNING and (gold paved path) doorway to things opening up and getting a whole lot better!
Can you relate and are you with me???
I know what I want and I’m going to get it -make it happen!! I’m crystal clear about my intentions and I can feel the promising potential of a new beginning! My rose colored glasses are on and in my positive and optimistic fashion (yay because I’ve still got it!) I’m stepping up and taking action… and I’m ready for and expecting! some exciting new doors to open up to me.
I see good things ahead for all of us, so let’s bring this new year on!!